Paint the town red

Someone , wake me up

2011-05-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

You know the time when you're torn between two choices , or you simple just don't know what to do ? And when you start seeking advice from people , and they reply 'Listen to your heart' ? Yeah , it just leaves me perplexed .

How do I actually know what my heart wants ? How do I separate my mind's thoughts from my heart's yearning ? Is there any separation at all in the first place ? It gets me questioning , is it just some typical cliche answer people give just to avoid our plead for some advice ? I mean it's not like you can go 'Okay heart , so what is it that you want, and brain , stay out of it' . I mean where's the determinant in all of this ?

And there's also the 'Do what you think is right' reply . First of all , why would I come to you , if I knew what's right ? People.

Listen

2011-05-16T05:18:00.000-07:00

Last week has been hell . Staying up late till 3am just sucking every information I can stuff into my head before I saturate and fall to sleep . Yes , it's last minute , very last minute indeed . But I don't blame myself . I blame the freaking education system . Throwing us exams every 2 weeks ain't gonna help . I get where they come from . Drilling us . So we become more prepared and yada yada . But they're doing it at the wrong time . I mean , give us a break . We just ended our April exam , and they're shoving us another major exam two weeks later . Tell me where in that time , do we students get to prepare ?

Personally , I think they're all screwed up in their heads . Why not asking us students what we think once in a while ? You call it 'democracy' , we call it injustice .

I love you

2011-05-12T00:46:00.000-07:00

How does it really feel to lose someone ?

Death . I know of a few relatives that passed away , but they were far relatives , some of them I've never met before . My great grandmother passed away a few years back, but there was only feeble memories of her where my family and I would visit her during Raya . Loss , I've experienced , but the pain of it ? Not yet .

It scares me , how permanent it is . Hidup di dunia ini bagaikan perantau . Hanya sementara . And it fucking scares me . I may not wear a tudung or may not be the most religious person you'll find , but I know and I believe . When everything fails , I think of God . I made my mistakes , and from him I seek forgiveness .

It's weird , how it takes a major occurrence in your life to set you back on the right path . You see what happened to the world , how Mother Earth is slowly crumbling . How earthquakes shakes the world , and how thousands of people die . You think , what if it all happened to you ? That's when you begin to cry God's name , begging for his protection.

It's weird how the pain in someone you love , brings you back to God's side . The fear of losing them , the fear of them leaving , permanently , silences everything . And when that happens , there's only one place to turn to . God .

Who says I can't get stoned

2011-04-23T22:44:00.000-07:00

It's an unexpected feeling . I swore to myself that that's what I wanted , and a decision I would never regret . And a glimpse of it made me yearn for it , slightly missing it . But then I realised my mind was sidetracked , that I was only looking at it from one view , where my heart wants too . And then only I saw , the whole picture . I miss it , but I don't want it back.

Bitch , just shut up

2011-04-21T22:18:00.000-07:00

I don't swear much when I write , but hell you deserve every single bit of it .

I've never seen such a baby . Running around spitting cold words just because he didn't get what he wanted . Okay , firstly , I get why you're upset . We all do . You had a choice , to get on and move on , or pout your mouth and be a baby . Obviously you chose the latter . And what's up with the 'witty' replies . If for a second you thought that whatever you have said this past weeks are at all 'intelligent' , I think you messed up witty with stupidity .

Feeling unsatisfied left you a to be an ass haven't it ? Dude , move on . Deal with it . But no , you choose not to . Because you're so immature that you decide , if I'm going to suffer , they are too.You decide that revenge is the best way . You feel better now ? Knowing that you just made yourself such a fool , but to constantly be in denial about it .

You are such a baby that you need everyone to be on your side . You are so crude that you needed everyone to be against us . You should just stop acting smart , because until you grow some sense of maturity , you should just shut up .

Kiwi

2011-04-21T21:58:00.000-07:00

I'm in deep shit . Not only will I get stares and pressure , it's like I'll feel undeserving. I tried , I effing tried , and don't you bloody say I didn't try hard enough . It's hard enough to have parents who doesn't actually want you to be involved in this matter , but it's harder to not rely on them when it comes to this. No wait , it's harder to even speak of it because even a word of it will send them running up the wall , and there you go . 15 minutes of non ending lecture. I get where you're talking from , believe me the hell I do . Until you personally know all the crap I have to put through just because my involvement isn't really permitted , might as well hold back your words.

She looks up , and she smiles

2011-04-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

Everything's slowly picking up , if I can say so myself . Everything's seem to be right these past days .

You're like fire , in ice cold winter

2011-03-23T04:57:00.000-07:00

Where did it go wrong ? Every second I try to find for the moment where it all started to change . You can seal your lips , shadow the truth with your infinite lies , but you see , I am not that oblivious as you think I am . Humans , they all take things for granted . I've made that mistake , and now I face the consequence . My mind whispers all I want to hear , but you're like the truth thrown right into my face .

And at times , I pray to myself , just wishing things were back like they were . Wishing that you'd be the old you , and I'll be the old me . Just wishing that nothing ever happened . Wishing that you would realize how I feel . But I guess it's too late . It always is .

It's like you never breathed out

2011-03-23T04:29:00.000-07:00

Convent Klang , defeated

We knew it could happen , we just never knew it would happen then .

It was bad . It was really bad . Blame me for being too emotional about it , but how can I not ? When all the effort that I've put in , the effort we've put in , has gone a waste . Sitting there , ensuring my fellow comrades that we've got this in the bag , and to have a bomb drop on you 5 seconds later , is plain heartbreaking.

Losing to a fair game , I wouldn't have mind much . But losing to an inequitable , unjust , unreasonable battle of tongue is simply unacceptable. Those uncouth , unmannerly , rude beings glaring , smirking with victory . Impudently harassing without a single care to their ethical manners , blabbering facts from created sources with feeble arguments and standing on flimsy ground . Well , congratulations .

There's a light inside of you

2011-03-07T03:48:00.000-08:00

There's those people who will always find a way to get on your nerves , something inevitable . Then there's those people oblivious to their own annoying ways , and those who shun themselves from the social world . Then there's those people who just cannot shut their mouths , for they always have something to say , and there's those people we'd rather label as the 'know-it-all' .

Yes , we are all critics . A judge of others . Yet we forget about ourselves . Where do we fit in ? Or do we even fit in at all ? Maybe all of us should put aside all our labels we've been stereotyped with . Just maybe .

Did you smile today ?

2011-03-07T03:40:00.000-08:00

High School , defeated

Yes , a moment of joy . But nothing stings more than the pain in a close soul . With all that have been said , everyone gave their all . So cheers to that . Next round , unknown.

Adrenaline

2011-02-28T08:41:00.000-08:00

Kapar , defeated

Somehow I feel bad for them , and though I wish I had spoken today , it was all for the best . The 3rd speaker form Kapar was really nice and sweet , and I felt horrible for her when my ever so determined teammates POI-ed her . Harassment is more like it .Joking guys , you guys did great (Y)

So the next round will be against High School . Really got to toughen up our game , kick into the 'kick ass' mode , and win this .

Cheerios .

Blowing kisses

2011-02-23T04:47:00.000-08:00

When people say , don't care what people think ,

It's not that easy

Time ; silent , but ticking

2011-02-19T01:40:00.000-08:00

1. Debate starts off next week ! Excited to the max . Nerves will kick in soon I suppose . Still , I miss the atmosphere , the excitement , everything.
2. IU Day . Practices have been going on . Preparations moving along . Few bumps here and there . But nothing goes without a hitch , right ?
3. Haven't completed the editorial issue , and it's due next week . God , have mercy on me .
4. So much drama have been going on , it's actually entertaining . Scratch that , it's really stressing . More on that on the next post .
5. The most important point , I have to start studying. No , procrastination , I'm not listening to you anymore . (yeah , right)
6. Should prepare myself for those late nights , though I promised myself to throw off my nocturnal days .
7. If my add maths teacher postpones the class again , or cancels it 1 hour after the class is suppose to be going on , i'm going to screw his ass off .
8. I should be more happy , apparently I'm always too depressed .

au revoir

You are your own enemy

2011-02-18T23:07:00.000-08:00

It's like a never ending cycle . You laugh , you cry , you regret , you laugh , you cry , you regret . The sting filled emotions , the raptured days , the days of staring into those mistakes . We know , yet we fall prey . Because despite our awareness , we choose to let it play us .

Some people are strong . They build walls . They build fences outside their walls . Protective , yet vulnerable , even the strongest person falters . Because the strength of emotions , that's what holds you . And you revolve around that .

At that point , you cling on to what you can . Hope . Faith . Support . Love . Yourself .

And it goes on and on

2011-02-05T09:44:00.000-08:00

I can feel it . I can feel the change . You don't see it , but I do . Who am I kidding . I knew it all along . Just too afraid to acknowledge that it might be true . That someday that nightmare I dream , could actually come true . I'm just afraid of losing that piece of comfort I had . I'm just .. afraid .

Your own hell

2011-01-23T06:28:00.000-08:00

Chewy said my status on facebook nowadays , have been rather depressing . I guess she's right , now that she mentioned it .

Because when you're alone , you let your mind wander free. No distractions , just your imaginations , all that you envisioned . And slowly it crawls and paints the image in you eyes too clear ; crystal . Your mind too fragile , wavering as those chimera play it's game . So you succumb . You let it out , so you can breath it in .

Because when you're alone , you see through different eyes .

It's time

2011-01-22T04:47:00.000-08:00

The pounding in your head gets harder ,
And you find yourself trapped in a flutter ,
For a moment , you freeze,
Your hand's to your chest ,
And you try to grab hold of yourself ,
But then you feel your mind losing to sanity ,
You try to dream , but you're awaken to the harsh reality
You ask yourself 'What am I gonna do?"
In the end , you do what you can ,
You cry , because you deserve to ,
You cry , because you know your heart wants to ,
You built a wall , so nothing would get through ,
You've been strong for too long ,
But it's time to bring it down ,
It's time .

Mind blowing , heart wrenching .

2011-01-12T04:09:00.000-08:00

School has somehow or rather been , hectic . Yes , not yet two weeks into school , and here I am , hoo haa-ing about how busy this past week has been . Oh well , my wish .

So entered school the first day and found out that my friends signed me up for an inter class debate ! Oh my . Which , in a matter of fact , took place today . Ask me anything on the topic 'the pen is mightier than the sword' and I might just give you a quite satisfactory answer due to the tremendous time I've been spending , googling everything I can on that very topic . Debate drains the minds due to the brainstorming , always has , and always will . But the experience ? Tiresome , but fun .

Is there any day where homework amazingly finds its way into the dumpster ? I guess not . You teachers should stop giving so much . Don't you realize that we're pretty occupied with enough tuitions , and your homework ain't helping ! Because of all the work that has been expected of me , I have officially become a nocturnal .Sleeping at 7pm because I'm simply TOO FATIGUED to even survive the whole night . And in the middle of that troubled sleep , I get up at 12am , with a fear for my undone homework . And so marks the beginning of my nocturnal days . The result ? Falling asleep in class . Which is something I'm trying my very best to avoid . A so called new year resolution of mine . Which apparently lasts for only the first week of new year . Heh .

It's just two weeks into school , and I'm complaining . Get a grip , Shazana .

You hope , because in the end , that's all you have .

2011-01-08T04:53:00.000-08:00

I know , the last post I wrote was practically three weeks ago . I admit a part of me is just too lazy to update this already dead looking blog , but a part of me still wants it to be filled with stupid writings of mine .

I came back from my holiday two days after school reopened . Oh should I say that London was indeed a heck of a holiday . I guess I needed it , before setting foot into 2011 . I needed that last smile before the pressure kicks in .

I know this is immensely late , but nevertheless HAPPY NEW YEAR !. People keep saying how they want to become a better person and yada yada yada . And how I know most of you have the same resolutions , and have the same aim. But why does this sudden urge to change , this sudden need to become better , come only after a year has passed ?

NEW YEAR , symbolizes more than just a the start of a new year . It makes you look back on the year before , and realize how far you've come . And from that , you start making resolutions . You realize how you may have hurt someone , so this year , you decide to make amends . You realize that you fooled around all through the year , and so this year , you promised yourself you'd change . You start putting your act together , because a new year , comes a new you . That's the whole point of new year isn't it ?

Give me love and happiness , fill me with hope . Keep my loved ones near , and give me the strength and will to to push through this year and I would not ask for more .

You'll see, this smile ain't what it's suppose to be

2010-12-15T08:41:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes you will break down and sometimes you will cry but just remember that it's not a sign of weakness, it's a sign that you've been strong for too long "

I guess I found the reason .

It's just the state of mind

2010-12-15T06:05:00.000-08:00

I've been putting of blogging for quite a while . There's just so much to write about , and I occasionally form posts in my mind , but when it gets down to writing it , I just , don't . Some people find writing as a source of expressing themselves in a way that could not be explained . Some people find comfort in singing their worries and troubles . Some people draw it out , shading and colouring all their feelings to which make them feel complete again . And some people just grab their Ipod and sink into the covers of their bed , and volume up so that they'll forget about what's happening , and just drown themselves in the music .

But the truth is , I don't know what I find comfort in . Yeah I do most of the stuff above , but then , there's always something that doesn't feel right . I find myself crying for no reason , and I was surprised that was even possible . Well maybe something did trigger me , but I just don't know what it is . I find myself sleeping a lot , just so to pass the time . Maybe I was just bored , but maybe I just didn't want to face and think about everything that's going on . I'm talking like I have this huge problem upon my shoulder , but I don't . I'm perplexed , and I probably sound like some disturbed girl who cries for no reason and won't stop ranting about something that she can't even understand herself . Well , I am . Sigh .

The only thing that lasts , is the memory of it

2010-12-15T05:43:00.000-08:00

Well , DIC was of course , nothing short of awesome . I can't seem to get the right words to explain all that happened , but certainly , it was an unforgettable experience . Therefore , I'm gonna post pictures of the conference . The pictures are not placed in order of the events that happened .Enjoy :)

The amount of people that attended the conference

During formal night

All the interact clubs from Klang

Formal night with Mia , me , Nicole and Bhavan

A snap during one of the talks . Even though some talk were like sleeping bombs , but we all did our own stuff to
occupy ourselves. And oh yeah , I miss sitting beside Krish

Cheering after the formal night ended . Viva La Interact :)

Audrey showing her moves during the dancefloor

This was the first day when we arrived at the hotel waiting to get sorted into our rooms .

The number of shoes all us girls brought. We're girls , what do you expect ?

A picture with the MGS girls <3

Taken during one of the talks .

Press your finger to your lips , then to the ground

2010-12-06T21:23:00.000-08:00

JUST CAME BACK FROM

DISTRICT INTERACT CONFERENCE

Details about the conference will be written soon . There's just so much

too say , but one word to describe the whole experience :

REMARKABLE

2010-12-01T18:58:00.000-08:00

Mr. Bala said I was HARDWORKING !

HAHAHAHAHAHA , joke of the century man .

Just because I did his homework he said I was hardworking :')

He just doesn't know I finished it only hours before his class, hehe

FYI , Mr. Bala is my add maths teacher.

A dive through December

2010-12-01T18:48:00.001-08:00

It's December . Already ?

Time passes by too fast , that all I wanna do is just ask it to slow down , I can't follow your pace . Time , catch a breath , don't worry , I won't be far behind . Sitting in solitary , all I could think of is how far I've come . One more year , and those daily dose of laughter and ludicrous characters I've grown accustomed to , will be fade away . Sigh .

So yesterday , went out with Mia , Izzaty , Chewbeccamama and Viagralin to Sunway. Extreme fun , from trying out outfits and dresses to karaoke-ing till all our voices cracked and ended up slumping on the couch . From trying to get the right picture of Raveena where she smiled properly (I love you chewwy) to Ailin and I belting out Augustana's songs .

True rapture comes from the company you have , enough said .

Coffee and cigarettes

2010-11-27T00:00:00.000-08:00

Yes , I'm guilty of listening to Augustana every single waking moment . Pure heaven . Walk into my room . Turn on the air-conditioner . Lie on the bed . Turn up the volume of the Ipod dock to that sweet sweet heavenly voice of Dan Layus . And just .. close my eyes . Yes , that's a slice of heaven right there . I used the word 'heaven' three times . That's how good they are .

Their 'Midwest skies and sleepless Mondays' album just blew me away . Hearing him sing 'you don't know me , you don't even care' , oh my , sends chills down my spine . If they ever come to Malaysia , jaws dropped , I'll be the first in line for the tickets . And I know absolutely who'll be my side , right Viagralin ? :)

Remind Ailin to pass me Can't Love Can't Hurt . I'm excited to the max !

So go and tear it up , black and cold with dust

Cause you're the red in my pink

2010-11-26T08:56:00.000-08:00

I have officially watched I AM SAM 3 times . Such a remarkable movie . It haven't failed to bring me to tears everytime I see Sean Penn acting as Mr.Dawson . His acting was indeed indescribable . The emotions and soul he instilled into being a mentally retarded character made it so believable , that you could not help but just be astounded .

I have this thing for sad movies . I have this thing for sentimental songs . I have this thing for heartbreaking and heart-healing books . Bewildered ? I am too .

Amirah Ismail

2010-11-24T06:36:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Mia :)

Through everything that has transpired , only two words can sum up to how I feel , Thank you

Thank you , for bearing with me for 7 years
Thank you , for listening to my never ending ramblings
Thank you , for listening to my problems
Thank you , for all your advice
Thank you , for making my day whether you know it or not

Thank you , for being my best friend , and I could never ask for more

They say , true friendship is never serene , and I guess it never is .
I'm sorry for all the mistakes I have done
I'm sorry for the times , I had hurt you deeply
Times I utterly regret , and times I wish I could take back.

Through everything that has transpired , thank you , for still being here .

I love you <3

:)

2010-11-21T22:07:00.000-08:00

Ooh La La

Time waits for no man

2010-11-20T22:38:00.000-08:00

This past week have been completely , entirely , thoroughly , from top to bottom , A to Z , utterly boring . The only exception to that was yesterday when the girls and I went to watch Harry Potter . It has been a long time , a really really long time , since only us girls went out for some chicks time , so it was fun . Watching Harry Potter for the second time , two days in a row would not have been my ultimate choice , but what the heck , Izzaty was craving to watch her 'hot' boyfriend , Daniel Radcliffe . Lol .

So to pass my time , I have planned to study . Well , SPM is next year , and needless to say , my fundamentals on Form 4 syllabus , isn't very strong to start with , so I guess it's just about the right decision to start hammer away and refurbish my foundation . Hence , my time is consumed by reading history , and attempting some add maths question which , by practice , the attempts most of the time did not turn out into contrariety !

Okay , har-har sorry to disenthrall , but the whole paragraph up there was an utter lie . But I wasn't lying about the 'planning to study' part though . And I wasn't lying about the next sentence . It's as though , I know what's right . I know what I should be doing , but I just need that force , that fear to poke me and say 'hey , if you don't start now , you'll end up working for MPK sweeping the roads' . As hyperbolic as it may sound , but it's just the exaggerated version of 'hey , if you don't start now , you'll end up crying over the time you procrastinated' .

Cry no regrets , for everything will light up if we just try , harder .

Blink 182

2010-11-13T07:27:00.000-08:00

I know I did not make the wrong decision because if I did , this post would be written out of pure regret , but it's not . Just a note of appreciation to how you had your own share in painting my life .

There were days , when talking to you was the only thing capable of turning my frown upside down.

There were days , where your absence pierced my heart deep enough to hit the core .

There were days , when every quandary that seemed to find their way around me , you would be on the other line , telling me exactly what to do .

But there were also days , you had me drowning in my tears and clutching my chest in unbearable pain , but I stayed . I never let go , because I knew the truth in my mind , I loved you .

I'm sorry , for breaking that very promise our relationship held onto. I will never be able to explain my actions and reasons , but I know in time , you will understand . And I hope in time too , you will find the will to forgive me .

There's ALWAYS room for improvement

2010-11-11T04:45:00.000-08:00

Let me start by saying that I miraculously attended school this whole week , given the fact that the 2 weeks of pressurizing exams are over . Yes , I skipped school when attendance were ever so compulsory because the teachers were 'teaching' , but I could get my butt off the bed and get myself to school when the teachers don't even enter the class .

Well , the best part about the fact that exams are over and done with , is that you practically don't have to touch a single book for at least another two months. Even that is inevitable since Form 5 tuition are already starting . Like come on , GIVE US A BREAK . I know everyone just can't seem to hold their urge of shoving knowledge into our brains , but like everything else , my brain apparently has limits . Ok , back to exams , if you're someone who's as lazy as me , then the best part IS not having to touch a single book for the next two months . The worst part is , waiting and getting the results .

If I was confident that I did well in my exams , then I wouldn't have to worry much about my results or about how it would bring imminent catastrophe . But I wasn't confident . And that's exactly what I was worried about . You see , I , like many other people , am the kind that practices last minute preparation . It's not that I don't believe in studying everyday , working hard weeks or months before an exam . It's just that , I know myself well enough that I don't have enough determination and diligence as those really hardworking students have . You can be the hardworking ones or you can be the ones who just wait merely a week before and exam to start studying . If you know me well , you'll know for sure I'm the latter . I can stuff information into my brain the night before an exam (which results in lack of sleep and possibly insomnia so I'm really suggesting you don't practice it too) , and spill it all out on the next day . And if you're lucky , you'll probably get high marks , maybe higher than those who actually prepared weeks before . But the difference is , they'll remember the knowledge that they've learned , but if you study last minute , you'll probably forget most of what you studied the night before the moment you step out of the exam hall . So one word of advice , never study last minute . Even though it works for me . Most of the time .

So in this past week , we've been getting our papers back . I'm not saying I'm happy with what I got , but I'm thankful . But the reason why I'm not really satisfied , is not because I didn't get a much better result than other people , but it's because I knew I COULD . But like they say , you get what you deserve . Nobody was born dumb . Neither was there anybody who were born smart . Except for special cases . But in general cases , the concept that nobody was born smart or dumb applies . I can personally say , that had tried bit harder , had I not decided to fallback on last minute preparations , I might just reach up to the high expectations set out there .

We just have to look ahead , and learn from the mistakes .

Carving smiles

2010-11-09T03:06:00.000-08:00

The past weekend has been an eventful one ..

Saturday

Dinner at Sherena's was super delicious . Her mum makes awesome murukku ,and to top it off with chappatis and prawns and curry . Now this is Deepavali . Later on , went to Pn Sunita's open house . More food , but restrained myself from eating too much , but I did help myself to the desserts though ;)

Oh , almost had a near death experience on the way back to Mia's house . Her mum is so cute . After sending Izzaty back , we got lost and ended on some lonely road with only the car's headlights as our guide . As she was about to make a swift turn , a car turned from the opposite side , and I could swore that I thought that the car's headlights was going to be the last thing I'll ever see in my life . Fortunately , Mia's mum avoided the car just in time . Reached Mia's house , and she fell asleep while I waited for my brother to come pick me up , and because football was too important to him , he picked me up at 1 am .

Sunday

Went to Aeon , and met up with Nicole . Saw Mia doing her hair at APT . So while waiting for her , we looked around to shop for Tommy's birthday present . Seriously , when it comes to buying a gift for a guy , I'm not your man . Checked out the place where Jordan and Shaun were working . Makes me wanna work too , nahh . When Mia finally finished , we met her mother , and was it epic when she said 'you two again ?' . Haha Mia , i love your mum . Before we could leave , we had to buy food for her sister who was also doing her hair , and soon after we did , we lost her mum . And found her eating at a restaurant . So we waited , and reached Tommy's place at around 3 . Talk about being fashionably late , haha :)

Tommy's birthday party was awesome . From the awesome games to the amazing people , just proves that it's not the location you have it in , just the company you have :) Happy Birthday Tommy !

Reee-laxx sistaa

2010-11-04T04:50:00.000-07:00

A warehouse sale during the holidays is the last place you would wanna be if you're the kind of person who hates all this crowded places . Well yeah , I was pumped for finally being able to get out of the house and do some serious shopping . But my god , the sight of women running in heels , scrambling through clothes , pulling them out , putting them back in , stuffing them in their bag , somehow reminds me of the scene you usually see in a movie where two ladies fight over a dress or something . And I think I looked weird holding back my laugh while I was thinking that .

As I was browsing through the clothes , unexpectedly bumped into Mei Hui . As I left the place , I looked back at all the clothes on the floor , a result of women trying to dig out the clothes down in the pile and letting all the other clothes on top fall off . Ohh well , there's not much you can do when it comes to a woman and shopping .

What can I give you in return ?

2010-11-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

Upon request of those two girls in eye-catching leopard prints , this post goes all out to all three of them .

How often do you find friends that you can call and cry your souls out ? How often do you find friends who care enough to know that something's not right ? How often do you find friends that you can laugh with for completely no reason at all ? Probably not that often . If there's anything that I've learned throughout these years , it would be that friendship is definitely priceless . I might have made mistakes , but it's those true friends who actually forgive you . The friends that hold your hands when you shed a tear , the friends that gives you a hug every morning , just simply , because they're happy to see you . Now those are the friends for keeps . And you guys portray exactly that .

In moments of solitude , hello

2010-11-03T00:54:00.000-07:00

After a long year of absence from blogging , it's about time to save this blog from the imminent 'cancel account' , I suppose ?

The days of examinations are well behind us , but there are still those not-so-significant papers still waiting to be sat for . Freedom is undeniably nothing short of sweet . But only when there's something to consume time with . Seven hours straight in front of a tv , is well , very time consuming , but the boredom just increases . So I started reading a book and looking at how much time I have in my hands , decided to write a blog .

So here I am , hello .